[RE] Being remembered

I was reading through blogs and I can definitely understand what Frank is saying.

Being remembered. Has anyone ever wondered what people will say when theyare gone? I know that I have wondered if i have lived my life so far in a waythat has impacted others lives in a good way.

 I always want to be remembered. I want to have an impact on those around me. What would happen if you just dropped off the face of the earth? Have you thought about that? Would you leave in a good positive way, or would people be thankful that you're gone. I want to always leave with a positive note. On anything that I choose to do. And it's not even just about death. If you lose a friend, what would someone say once you're out of their lives. Would they say good things about you or tell things that are unappealing to hear. They may even make up things about you to sound like a lower person.

This is also the case for relationships. Have you ever wondered what the other would say if you break up? What they'll talk about you to others who question. Would they say nasty things about you or look on the positive side of things. I never want to leave someone and have negative impact on them. Either in a relationship, or friendship. I dont want to leave a relationship with hatred and negativity. I dont want them to say bad things about me when I'm gone. I want to have a positive impact on them. Even when I'm gone, I want to know that I made a difference in their lives. I want to know that I'm making a difference.

[F] Own up

I hate that not a lot of people like to confront people. Or just tell people things straight up. If you're arguing about something, or something isn't working, you need to tell them your feelings instead of bottleing them up inside. I hate when people say "I dont like to cry. It shows that I'm weak" That's complete bullshit. Honestly, dont ever say that to me. You should never keep your feelings inside. That's a terrible way to deal with your problems. One should never think that crying is a sign of weakness or failure. Or not even crying. Just expressing how you feel. I hate when I tell someone about how I'm feeling and I get nothing back. Conversations go two ways. It would be nice to know how the other person's feeling. It would benefit the whole cause.

If you dont want to talk about something, it's not going to fix anything. It could even make it worse. You need to have communication with someone. Either if it's friendship or a relationship. Communication is key to having a successful relationship with anyone. Dont just expect things to fix itself over time. That rarely happens. And why would you even want to do that in the first place. Why would you want to sit back and watch something happen, not knowing the outcome. Always take things into your own hands. Dont expect things to be handed to you. This is the real fucking world. Deal with things in a mature way.

[CE] Philippines reels in second typhoons wake

First, let me say that I hate doing current event posts. Least favorite.

Philippines reels in second typhoons wake

Reading things like this makes me upset. Things that happen in the Philippines. Or just anywhere in general, but I can relate to this more. In the article it stated that rescue workers were struggling to evacuate tens of thousands of people trapped in their homes from floods from the aftermath of Typhoon Nalgae. Public buildings including churches, schools and offices were used to accommodate people seeking higher ground. But some residents were hesitant to leave their homes, fearing looting.

This actually effects me a lot more than it should because those are my people. Many people dont know that I'm 75% Filipino and that a lot of my family resides in the Philippines. I've been their many times and have lived the way they lived. It's scary to know that I know exactly what it would look like there right now, seeing as I've been to the Philippines. I know how run down a lot of the islands are. And that this is happening, it could take all their lives work with it. It could totally destroy everything they have.

I feel people here america do take things for granted. They dont realize how much other countries have to go through. Especially small islands off the coast that get hit by hurricanes and typhoons. We dont experience that here, but if that happened to us, it would be completely devastating.

[RE] Something new

People always change and while they are changing they become something new. So who knows what can happen in one year. We meet new people, we experience new things and we just go on with our life.

This quote from Luki's blog really stood out to me and gave me chills because this is so true.

People will always change. If it's really know, or even if its so gradually you dont really notice it. Even if you dont want to change, or dont want someone else to change. Change is inevitable. Nothing will ever be the same. No one will ever be the same. Maybe very close like it, but never the same. When someone changes, they become something new. Sometimes even something they swore they'd never become. You may change into something you never wanted for yourself. Sometimes you just cant help it. You just need to let it happen.

Sometimes I wish change wasn't so important in life. Sometimes I wish things and people would just stay the same, so our feelings would always stay constant. But what challenge would that be? So many different  things could happen in a year. Maybe something truly devastating, or something that's made you completely happy. In a year I, myself have changed. The people in it have changed. My surroundings have changed. Everything has. I've met people that I didn't think would ever been as important as they are to me now. I've lost a lot of friends in the process of being in a long relationship, but they were never really close friends if they left, were they?

A lot of people think of change as a bad thing. But I promise you, sometimes it's not. Sometimes it brings you so much joy and happiness. I wish that for you all.

[F] Change

This past week and a half have been so fucking crazy. It's been a whirlwind of emotions, good and bad. Although what happened was really upsetting to both me and my boyfriend, it made us both stronger as people and as a couple. I think from this point on, we'll understand each other more and we'll be able to get through a lot more situations in the future. I also think that we appreciate each other more and realized that we could lose each other. It really opened our eyes. Although many high school relationships dont last very long at all, some from weeks to a month or two, I think it is possible to have a strong high school relationship. Even after leaving high school and starting your life in the 'adult' world. Many take for granted what they have. My boyfriend was a senior when I was a sophomore so going into junior year, I didnt see him everyday like I did sophomore year and over the summer. I think that was a hard transition for me. A lot of people take that for granted. The time spent with their loved ones.

Through our relationship I've changed significantly. Those close to me can really tell the difference in all aspects of my life, and even those who aren't, they still agree that I've changed. Everyone changes in the course of a year and a half, of course, but my whole lifestyle changed. The way I acted, my perspective on things and my feelings dramatically changed. It's scary how much one person can change you so much in the short amount of time given.